What kind of chaos lives quietly inside you?

Knowing I'm not enough alone but I can't find anyone to partner with and how that's affecting my son. I just can't do everything necessary. My life doesn't really work but I'm trying anyway. And that people will watch us go down and do nothing.

Knowing I'm a failure no matter how hard I try.

Feeling like a nature's mistake a lot.

The chaos that I want someone to love me but I don’t really want to talk to anyone 😂

The constant battle between what I want to do and am able to do.

Trying to stop the thoughts escaping my mouth adds to the chaos.
It's a tempest up there.

I am chaotic in my thoughts but I prefer that to the ticking of clocks

The desire for ..

My chaos doesn’t do quiet.

It's exhausted me.

Hatred for a few people