anyone else tired of covid?

ive had so many bad experiences cause of it, like i wanted to see my twin sister on our birthday and couldnt thanks to covid, her landlady wouldnt let her have visitors, later she died back in sept, couldnt even see her one last time, when she died, my brothers refused to go to her funeral, again, thanks to covid, i couldnt bear to go alone but i did see it on zoom, also, i havent seen my friend since feb thanks to covid, i usually go there for thanksgiving cause my brothers wont invite me but thanks to covid, that will probably not happen, she refused to hang out with me on my birthday, again thanks to covid, and i didnt even have it. i rarely get sick, and if i did i would stay home. anyone else have these kinds of bad experiences thanks to covid, i know covid happens but do we all have to live like we're sick when we're not? i cant even go to the senior center down the street since march, again thanks to covid, i figure if i get it i get it, but im not getting it and tired of living like im sick when im not, i do wear a mask if i have to like buses or doctors appt, tired of being bugged by neighbors about it, i wear it when the manager is around and take wknds off from wearing it, but then neighbors will bother me. i tell them im dealing with a death in the family and not in the mood to be harrassed. anyone else?