Losing your job is one of the scariest things an adult can go through.
In 2016 I lost my job that I had for several years and was only late one time due to car issues and had called to let them know. I was also employee of the month several times and had trained many people there. I was let go because the schedule was changed and I didn't realize and never showed for a shift I wasn't aware I had. They called me several times that morning but I wasn't aware as I was asleep and didn't hear my phone. They used the time I was late against me as well. During this time there was a change in management and because I wasn't exactly in the "in crowd" aka the clique these people were a part of I felt they were trying to find a way to boot me out so a friend could have my position. I noticed several great workers were getting hours cut and nitpicked by these people because they weren't part of their little group.
Anyways now that the backstory has been told the reason it is scary is because unless you are making massive amounts of money something like this can destroy your life in many ways. I blew through what little bit of savings I had, I took out two credits cards and maxed them out trying to stay afloat and it's been an uphill battle trying to get rid of credit card debt because to this day living paycheck to paycheck I don't always have enough to make ends meet hence the credit card shows up to save the day. I have almost $2k in credit card debt and I don't even know anymore how much medical debt I have and don't wish to know. Thankfully I have no student debt as I never went to college but losing my job and then struggling to find a new one for ages really hurled a giant warhead at my life. I was able to get unemployment but that was a process and a battle in and of itself. I was almost homeless too which would have added another layer to the crap sandwich. Mentally my confidence was shattered and each rejection made me feel even more worthless than before. For interviews I had taken out every piercing which I have many, suit on which I don't like wearing, professional attitude the whole nine yards. Something else too that ate at me was feeling scared to even try because what if I pick the wrong place and it's the same as the last or worse? That has actually happened in my life and it's something I have always been afraid of since. There are just so many things that eat at you and mess with you it's ridiculous.
Anyways now that the backstory has been told the reason it is scary is because unless you are making massive amounts of money something like this can destroy your life in many ways. I blew through what little bit of savings I had, I took out two credits cards and maxed them out trying to stay afloat and it's been an uphill battle trying to get rid of credit card debt because to this day living paycheck to paycheck I don't always have enough to make ends meet hence the credit card shows up to save the day. I have almost $2k in credit card debt and I don't even know anymore how much medical debt I have and don't wish to know. Thankfully I have no student debt as I never went to college but losing my job and then struggling to find a new one for ages really hurled a giant warhead at my life. I was able to get unemployment but that was a process and a battle in and of itself. I was almost homeless too which would have added another layer to the crap sandwich. Mentally my confidence was shattered and each rejection made me feel even more worthless than before. For interviews I had taken out every piercing which I have many, suit on which I don't like wearing, professional attitude the whole nine yards. Something else too that ate at me was feeling scared to even try because what if I pick the wrong place and it's the same as the last or worse? That has actually happened in my life and it's something I have always been afraid of since. There are just so many things that eat at you and mess with you it's ridiculous.
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