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Hello everyone, I've been trying to induce lactation for a while due to fetish reasons, however recently I've been told that my fear of pregnancy is most likely affecting my ability to induce. I know that fear and no wanting something is a separate emotion. As a result I would like get rid of my fear of pregnancy, any suggestions? I still don't like kids, I've been anti kids since I was 10 (19 now). I'm okay with them when they're not mine. To me kids and pregnancy are an extension to womanhood and not a necessity. I wish to treat my future patients like my children rather then having to come home to some. I'm a selfish person, I'd rather buy me nice things then buy kids toys and pay for school. An unwanted kid is very rarely treated well anyway, I'm certain that if I somehow was forced to have a kid it would sense my hatred of the situation. I have trouble understanding them and getting along with them.. And pregnancy, kids all that jazz always take up a lot of time and money. I know pregnancy is needed for survival of the species. Though to be honest humans constant population expansion causes quite a few problems globally. It can cause so many health issues (some permanent and life threatening e.g. diabetes), is hard to get rid of (abortions aren't 100% effective sadly), it messes up your pussy by permanently stretching it and ruining the pleasure of sex. Though I heard kegal exercises can help that. The pregnancy and result of it is financially damaging and sometimes mentally damaging. It would mess so many things that I want in my life up. I would rather just play with a friends kid then I can give it back. All the benefits, none of the risk. I've always wanted to be married to my job and travel when I can. I love to learn, that's why I'm on here. I know I can learn things from pregnancy and kids, but I'm still afraid of pregnancy. Any suggestions or anyone who feels the same?