I’m pathetic

The light in my eyes has died out. These days I feel like I’m dragging myself to just exist. I spend most of my free time asleep. And I really do mean that. I feel pathetic, I feel like other people have it worse than me and yet I can’t get myself out of this mood. I take my meds, it doesn’t really help. I don’t know what I’m waiting for. I keep wanting to pass the time. Why? Nothing is getting better. Sometimes I just want to give up but I’m suffering in silence. No one knows how I feel.