I hate I have to relax the whole day just to keep my body in check

I can't move around faster than I Use too, or else I'm afraid my body will trigger to whack mode.

I have to relax my mind from further damage.

Part of me wants to beat the living crap out of this world non-stop and show no mercy against the system.

Then again, it comes to haunt me with panic attacks. My body is damaged from too much anger and strained in my body it sucks :/


I really have deep hatred for this world of man made system.