Just being honest

I’m the one that left but then I kept spiraling deeper and deeper back into alcoholism which almost destroyed us years before. I remember we were on the phone. I was saying I’m going out (I was going to go drink and sleep with someone else) and my ex said “go then” and I took the challenge. I mistook the tone. I think I thought it was never really over. I’m a fool for that. We never recovered all the way to the end and I’ve never stopped going over it. In the end I walked away but we were so done before even that.