I hope I like it

This program is a big joke and I’d walk my ass out at this point just find a doctor to prescribe my billion meds but I just got a new one and it’s an antipsychotic and I have no idea if it’ll need to be adjusted or what right now. My experience with doctors has been literal shit. I’m staying in this terrible program for the medication and grinding my teeth. I hate it. I hate the whole thing. And probably the best things they could offer me- is simply a foggy memory of my trauma. A way to just be normal. But I have to go through this garbage to get it.