Not a child
I think my mother thinks I’m incapable of anything, like a child.
I have been constipated for 10 days. Yes it’s not good but I’ve been literally trying everything I can and following every piece of advice online. I know it’s not a medical emergency yet. I have not eaten in like three days to not add to it which has been hard.
I am on Tirzepatide so that’s why. And I genuinely believe it just slows everything to a crawl. I have Reglan from my past ER visit and I’m going to take that when I get home from therapy and my psychiatrist.
But anyway… I got something that you need to stick up your ass yesterday. And I was doing fine. But she was demanding to help. I didn’t let her lol. But that’s the kinda weird thing she does that she’d never do with my brothers. Like I’m incapable. And to me it’s weird to offer to do that to your 29 year old. Maybe I’m alone on that, I just think it is. I have an emeshment relationship with my mom so I think everything constantly makes me uncomfortable.
I have a bachelors degree, I’m not just an idiot. But then today, at 4 am I just got up to pee and she hollered at me and said “are you supposed to be peeing?”
My psych apt requires a urine test once a month to prove to the government I’m not drinking.
I said I’m going to drink a lot and it’s not until 9:30 am and she kept blocking the door. Again.. acts like I’m incapable.
This whole experience has sucked enough
I have been living here since I went into the detox program. She was my cheap version of rehab.
Idk I feel so much stressed today.
And she doesn’t truly care that’s the other thing. She refuses to help me get medical attention whenever I actually need it. So her “care” has nothing to do with me. She does not care. Like I might be having a medical emergency soon. Can’t get any liquid down now and she texts “ok” and then hands me a shopping list for when I pick up my meds. Idk if I was going to idk if I’m going to be calling an ambulance rn. She won’t stop coming in my room if I lock it she just bangs on it. I should have just went to actual rehab. I should have fought for it.
I have been constipated for 10 days. Yes it’s not good but I’ve been literally trying everything I can and following every piece of advice online. I know it’s not a medical emergency yet. I have not eaten in like three days to not add to it which has been hard.
I am on Tirzepatide so that’s why. And I genuinely believe it just slows everything to a crawl. I have Reglan from my past ER visit and I’m going to take that when I get home from therapy and my psychiatrist.
But anyway… I got something that you need to stick up your ass yesterday. And I was doing fine. But she was demanding to help. I didn’t let her lol. But that’s the kinda weird thing she does that she’d never do with my brothers. Like I’m incapable. And to me it’s weird to offer to do that to your 29 year old. Maybe I’m alone on that, I just think it is. I have an emeshment relationship with my mom so I think everything constantly makes me uncomfortable.
I have a bachelors degree, I’m not just an idiot. But then today, at 4 am I just got up to pee and she hollered at me and said “are you supposed to be peeing?”
My psych apt requires a urine test once a month to prove to the government I’m not drinking.
I said I’m going to drink a lot and it’s not until 9:30 am and she kept blocking the door. Again.. acts like I’m incapable.
This whole experience has sucked enough
I have been living here since I went into the detox program. She was my cheap version of rehab.
Idk I feel so much stressed today.
And she doesn’t truly care that’s the other thing. She refuses to help me get medical attention whenever I actually need it. So her “care” has nothing to do with me. She does not care. Like I might be having a medical emergency soon. Can’t get any liquid down now and she texts “ok” and then hands me a shopping list for when I pick up my meds. Idk if I was going to idk if I’m going to be calling an ambulance rn. She won’t stop coming in my room if I lock it she just bangs on it. I should have just went to actual rehab. I should have fought for it.
26-30, M