My caseworker

I’m pissed because I was taking a shower and my caseworker called and I was like five fucking minutes late and I called her right back and she’s like I’ll call you next week after telling me she needed to see me two weeks ago and we haven’t been able to meet up because she hasn’t called and I was supposed to wait but she was mad and I could tell and I told her I was sorry and she didn’t say anything but what the fuck like what do you want me to do answer when I’m taking a shower like God like I feel like I have to get out of the shower and answer the phone or they’re gonna drop me from the program and at this point I am exhausted. I can’t do this anymore. I’m actually shaking cause I’m so tired of it. I don’t fucking wanna meet with her, but I know she’s pissed and she told me to answer the phone and I was going to. I just was fucking taking a shower like what am I supposed to do? I’m really tired of the stress that this causes me when I’m supposed to be getting help for my alcoholism like it’s not something that I should have to feel bad for just because I’m not fucking perfect.