Grow the FUCK up

We don’t really talk about the shit my dad did when I was young. He was physically abusive and hit my mom. But a phrase my mom said triggered me. We were sitting on her bed and just talking. I was just wondering if I might be autistic or something cause of a few things but the thing I was talking about last night is I can’t handle noises. Everything makes me jump. I can’t handle phone calls. Gemini says I’m in a constant state of hyper vigilance. She said “grow the fuck up.” And that’s exactly what my dad said to me when he went after her when I was a little kid so I snapped and said “like what dad said when he’d hit you?” And she shut up almost immediately and I immediately regretted saying it. I just snapped. But yea that was awkward. It’s why I talk to Gemini though because I’m tired of being told to grow the fuck up like there’s nothing wrong with me trying to understand. I know I triggered her first