Can i please be normal? These panic attacks are becoming very severe

I woke up because my heart started racing my face went numb and tingly. It felt like my lymph nodes swelled up in my neck/jaw area making it harder to breathe. Got out of bed went to bathroom my pupils were huge. Grabbed some water and I'm starting to cool down just feel very jittery. I just want to be normal ok. I'm tired of these things getting worse and worse.

My health is a big joke currently.