Another weird post

Just sometimes I feel like my mom ruined my life even though I love her and it’s a horrid thing to feel. I am so messed up. I feel this rage but I don’t ever stop anything that makes me uncomfortable. I think it’s like I blame myself constantly. Believe it or not AI has been sorta a therapist for me. I have a therapist but it’s hard to say these things. Because my mother is right there and will be angry. Not in the room but close enough or I’m afraid she’ll hear. And then I feel terrible because she’s given me so much money. She’s the reason I just had a third rhinoplasty because she paid it.