Not that I have to explain myself because I don’t… but some of y’all need to be reminded

There is no need to be ugly. But I hope it was coming from a place of concern for you.
From someone who came out of an abuse marriage then fell for a narcissist I do think you should tread very lightly here and don’t rush into marriage. It can take a while for someone’s true intentions to come to light.
I too believed he was too good for me and that I didn’t deserve someone like that. That’s a very dangerous mindset to have in any relationship. We had what I thought was 6 good years together but it was just him controlling and spinning his web tighter. When he decided he was done he spent almost a year completely breaking me first.