Ever have a strange dream whenever you take a short nap? I was the world's worst father in mine.
Played out like a mini drama series. In my dream I was split up from this woman I don't know if we were married before or what the deal was. We had a son together and I'd put him around the pre teen mark. Never saw the woman before and I don't have children. The weird bit was I was watching myself through my sons eyes. I'd show up make some noise and leave.
My former love kept trashing me in front of my son calling me a loser and worthless. My son saw me as a disappointment. His face everytime I'd leave was hard to see. I'd show up for a so called visit say hey and leave. I was always drunk or high or both. I looked a mess.
Former love was trashing me saying I was a loser always screwed up and cares more about the guitar and partying than everything else. There were a few other things but that was the idea of it all.
Perhaps it was my subconscious telling me good job on never having children because this is how it would have been.
I woke up from my nap feeling bad about myself that's for sure
My former love kept trashing me in front of my son calling me a loser and worthless. My son saw me as a disappointment. His face everytime I'd leave was hard to see. I'd show up for a so called visit say hey and leave. I was always drunk or high or both. I looked a mess.
Former love was trashing me saying I was a loser always screwed up and cares more about the guitar and partying than everything else. There were a few other things but that was the idea of it all.
Perhaps it was my subconscious telling me good job on never having children because this is how it would have been.
I woke up from my nap feeling bad about myself that's for sure
