i know i have been joking all night and stuff but, serious question

have any of you grown up in homes so fcked up that you crave getting bodily beaten? i know i sound CRAZY saying that, but my body like..remembers the chaos, and i crave it 😪

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Bexsy

I grew up in a fucked up home. Known chaos most my younger life.

I dont miss it.

But sorry your feeling like that 🥺

foldedunfolding · 41-45, F

@Bexsy im really sorry you did too. i dont miss the emotional pain and stuff but like..i think it's psychological, and im going to bring it up to my counselor tmrw. they say sometimes you abuse yourself after..like you pick up where they left off. and some of it becomes a pattern bc it is almost like you are reliving it to fix it for the next time.

foldedunfolding · 41-45, F

@Bexsy ugh i knew i was forgetting something in today's session! i am going to bring this up next time!!

Bexsy

@foldedunfolding maybe write down a reminder?

foldedunfolding · 41-45, F

@Bexsy yeah she is having me make 3 columns for next time, bc i asked her to help me with emotional regulation when i have ptsd or panic reactions: 3 columns, what happened, what i felt, how i responded. i dont know if these silly exercises will cure me..but im trying.