I know you are going through a lot and I hope your therapy sessions help you with your emotional trauma.
I think deserve ins't a really a thing in society on an emotional level. We will as a commmunity (where ever you live / your community) tend to spend more time and invest more into people we feel are kind giving and nuturing.
I feel it is natural to invest more in people who are kind to you . But deserver is a tough word if I can knitpick. It am not srue in terms emotinal support we inheriently deserve anything.
if you want to recieve goodness and kindness and you buy into (and big if you don't have to ) my idea that people in general gravitate towards people that are kind and giving that makes the next step to be a kind giving nurturing person.
The step after that would be to that you want this in return and make a strong effort to invest time and emotional energy in those that give you the same while minimizing interaction with those that do not.
It is process like anything else in socialization . You interact witth those around you, form the bonds with those you feel good about spending time with and hope they make the same time investmment in you. However at the end of the day it is their choice to do that or not do that. Deserve isn't part of their evaluation (or yours of others) on whom to interact with and how to treat them.
