New Beginning

I was with my soon to be ex wife for 15 years, and we were married for 10 of them. We lived with her mother in her mom's house in Clarksville, TN (about 40 minutes north of Nashville). She told me she no longer wanted to be married, and she kicked me out. I had to move down to FL because I had nowhere else to go. I "celebrated" my 10 year anniversary separated from life as I knew it. I was supremely depressed and in anguish. I ended up in the psych ward, but have found a great therapist, and my meds are working to keep me level. I draw disability from Social Security and the VA. I havent worked since 2014.

I look back and see that I had given up on myself. I dressed in gym shorts, tshirt, and birkenstocks. Everywhere, that was my wardrobe. I was so depressed, I sometimes went a week without a shower. I would sleep 14 or more hours a day. All I did was watch tv, play video games, or mindlessly surfed the web. I let my mental disorders and diagnoses define and limit me. Well, something changed in the last 60 days. I have gone from waking up around 10 or 11 to waking up at 6am through the week; wake up at 7 on the weekends. I started doing this in preparation of starting my own business next month. I have started taking care of personal hygiene as well as keeping my living space cleaned up and organized. I am making plans to better my life so that I can be the blessing to others Ive always wanted to be.

I havent told anyone that Im starting a business other than 2 family members. For once, I feel extremely optimistic about what the future holds.