you'd think after suddenly losing my mom i would have learned my lesson to not put things off, because life is so unpredictably short

every day my roommates two favorite dogs cuddle and i think to myself that i need to get a cute pic of them doing it. his dog, max, had to go to the emergency vet tonight where we found he has severe heart failure.

roommate wanted to take him home tonight. says he didnt want him to be alone at the vet. which i understand. but i think it also stems greatly out of wanting to be with him, knowing he just lost about 7 years with his little fella. but the vet and i pushed back heavily because.. 80% blood oxygen is severe hypoxia. max was at like.. 60-70%

if he came home tonight his organs would fail and he would suffer greatly

vet wanted to keep him for potentially 2 days, which would be almost 3k. but they weren't confident 2 days was enough time to get him in a state safe enough to come home.

he agreed to 12 hours. best case scenario.. the first medicine they try works for him and he can live for one more year.

but if in 12 hours (10 now, actually) things aren't looking up, he may need to be put to sleep..

i want to get a custom painting of his dogs cuddling but the photos i have arent what i need. one is cute but they're facing away. other two aren't as cute. but also, not what i need. the lighting, the angle, and also, i think he wants max's head on top of fluffy's.

i can, realistically, send reference photos to the artist and explain what i want done. that's what artists do.

but i'm more upset by my putting things off because i have plenty of time, when in reality life is wildly unpredictable