I feel guilty and evil for what I am doing.

As some of you know, my cats have been hit with parvo. Right now, I have 4 cats, 3 of them are still looking healthy, but my youngest, a 4-month-old kitten, has started showing symptoms.

When I noticed the same smell that I had with my first two cats before they passed, I already knew what was happening. After reading more about it, I learned that kittens almost never survive parvo without vet confinement, which I sadly can’t afford.

The part that makes me feel guilty is that I decided to stop giving her supplements when I noticed the smell. It wasn’t because I wanted to abandon her, but because I didn’t want to prolong her suffering anymore. I don’t know if it was the right choice, but i really just don't want her to suffer much longer.

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TinyViolins · 31-35, M

Parvo is devastating for younger pets. I lost a puppy to parvo and had to sterlize the entire house. The next one got parvo in spite of everything and he barely made it too. Probably only survived because he was the biggest in his litter.

The puppy died quick. Lasted maybe only a week, if that. It progresses very quickly. The vet most likely wouldn't have made a difference. Sometimes pets are just marked for death and there's not much we can do about it.

I lost a dog to an aggressive tumor last year that she was fighting for many years. Despite the surgeries and the medications, it kept coming back more aggressively. I could've taken her to do chemotherapy and maybe buy her a few more months, but I had to accept the reality that I couldn't afford to spend at least $10 grand just to prolong her suffering. She was marked for death and I had to accept that.

That kitten most likely wouldn't have survived no matter what you did. Parvo just sucks. It hits so hard and so fast that most pets are done for before we can properly treat it.

I know you feel guilty because I've been there too, but I seriously doubt there's much you could have done.

DustyPotato · 22-25, M

@TinyViolins First sorry for your losses, hopefully you’re healing. And yeah, I guess you’re right, parvo is really just brutal and fast. I’ve been beating myself up thinking I could’ve done more, but hearing your story makes me realize sometimes it’s just out of our control. Thanks for sharing, it helps a lot.