I'll be fine and able to put it out of my head, bc my cat is just laying there like she always has, a kitty loaf sweetie..and then, just now, I see

her licking her tumor and it is bleeding. She has been sticking to mostly one comforter and it rarely oozes, so maybe I am an idiot..but I didn't want her uncomfy in her final days..and didn't want to put her in a diaper. She isn't lethargic, and she is eating and drinking, seemingly in no pain..so sometimes I can dissociate and fool myself, but I am going to have to put her down. I don't know if I can do this on my own y'all 😭😭😭

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Beaker4444 · 46-50, M

Anyone who tells you it isn't that big of a deal or you're being dramatic has no heart. Fur babies are family period. Give that cat all the love and joy she can handle while you can. I'm here if you need to vent. We got this.

foldedunfolding · 41-45, F

@Beaker4444 aww thank you..no one is telling me that, surprisingly..guess im just gaslighting myself that people may think i am a lame bc i am doing it publically..and there is such a cruel cliche that we big girls have no one but our cats

Beaker4444 · 46-50, M

@foldedunfolding You have people, myself included. The thing is cats are usually better than people.

foldedunfolding · 41-45, F

@Beaker4444 yeah and that is what people dont get..like..people are capable of SUCH ABJECT CRUELTY, and you are going to tell me that this little fur baby being, who has achieved the highest state of enlightenment, is not a TRUE FRIEND!?

Beaker4444 · 46-50, M

@foldedunfolding Exactly what I mean. That fur baby has been there unconditionally for how long... most likely you can't say that about a lot of people who you thought were good friends. That's the reason fur babies are so special.

foldedunfolding · 41-45, F

@Beaker4444 yeah dude absolutely this is the worst decision to have to make. i found a spot of blood as i was cleaning my floors today..went ahead and ordered some preemie diapers like the vet tech said i could..just need to change 2x a day and make sure to clean her 🥺🥺

Beaker4444 · 46-50, M

@foldedunfolding Aww. The poor baby. I know it has to be so hard for you to deal with. Just keep doing the best you can for both of you.