I'll be fine and able to put it out of my head, bc my cat is just laying there like she always has, a kitty loaf sweetie..and then, just now, I see

her licking her tumor and it is bleeding. She has been sticking to mostly one comforter and it rarely oozes, so maybe I am an idiot..but I didn't want her uncomfy in her final days..and didn't want to put her in a diaper. She isn't lethargic, and she is eating and drinking, seemingly in no pain..so sometimes I can dissociate and fool myself, but I am going to have to put her down. I don't know if I can do this on my own y'all 😭😭😭