Do I deserve to be hated?

I confessed my love to my sister's husband, we had a relationship for a while, I caused my parents to divorce, I always slandered the women my father was going to marry, I caused my step sister to be hospitalized... I had a relationship with married men with children. When I was a child, I tortured cats for no reason and continued to do so later. .. I was working in a kindergarten, I had no tolerance for children. I always take my anger out on whomever I am not afraid of.