Maybe i am selfish i don't know.

So i told my wife id pick up the kids but i needed to bring them home after school. I was exhausted and my head has never hurt so bad before. She didn't argue. I dropped them off and went home. I crashed for about 45 minutes. I tried everything except oding on pills to go to sleep.

Then i got a text message.

Hey bro we decided to get together for dinner and a movie at the cigar lounge.

I ignored it for a while but then i thought f@ck it why not.

I meet my buddies for dinner.
We headed to the cigar lounge.
I sipped whiskey
Enjoyed a Kristoff and watched a ok movie.
We talked laughed and had a great night.

Now im home unable to sleep unsure if i should take another sleeping pill.

Im feeling guilty. I feel like i was being selfish for going out. I feel bad that i enjoyed myself alone without my kids.

Is this normal or am i the bad guy