I hate this

I hate my life i want to end it all.. I have no one irl to comfort and talk to me, They would just think of it a burden and i feel like most of the students and staffs don't really like me..I really wanted to be friends with one of the girls but even though we are connected in Socials..We don't talk to each other at all unless i talk first.. I just know when someone doesn't like me and i know that too well.. Nothing in my life is going good not even once i can't even control might say.. I am in Middle School right now..I wanted to ask my mom abt going to ask for proffessional help..But she just gets mad at me.. All of my homeworks and stuffs is piling i can't even habe time to think about making friends..My comments about stuff like my choice of clothing etc..When i say i'm already a Teenager, I can dress myself. She says yea You're already a Teenager but you 'can't dress yourself correctly' When i want to buy something she's like Arghhh So Annoying, I have no choice if i don't agree with her bcs she's like well fine go then you can get out of the house and sht like that.. And she won't let me stay in the office and udnerstand me even though it's smokin hot outside and i'm burning..And When she drives me at home late..Because she has a job We have The Same School btw..I asked her many times for my father or her to drive me there to my house to do my assignments but she's like Don't disturb your Father!! You know he's tired!! Like one of the few days he actually goes back He sleeps all the time thats why he's not answering..And it also doesn't help I have a lot of assignments and stuffs to do But she doesn't get it..I don't ahve enough time to finish..And she wonders and gets mad at me For Having Bad Grades!! Like She doesn't even teach me herself?? Even though the School and the subject i am studying is more different and it's also 1 year advance.. Arghh Like she doesn't understand she's so insensitive..And bcs there's literally so many taxis and many other commuye rides out there but she still insists on My Father picking us up when he doesn't even answer.. And i'm literally waiting for more than 30 Miniyes and she jist said My Father actually didnt see it..LIKE WYFFF..If you want to live and stay at school Stay There..I don't want to,, She lets me go and do stuffs and places where i don't want to..And i Feel like i'm even having a panick attack sometimes..Like bcs she wants to 'save money' Now i'm stuck in this old ass up stuff up waiting for how long..And it turns into night already while also raining and the Insects are so annoying..And it's also rlly hot like i'm sweatinga Lott..LiKE I'M SO MAD she doesn'& understand..she won't let me live my life..I HATE MY LIFE SO MUCH

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OogieBoogie · F

Ok...slow down and get a grip.
1. Life is about you AND the people in it:
You are not perfect ....and neither are they : and thats ok.
2. Everything doesn't happen perfectly : and that's ok.
3. Life is hard ,,and its chaos ,,get used to it.
4. Stop complaining - you are lucky enough to have people who love you and help you out, you could be catching the bus.
5. Life isnt about just you .....other people have needs to.

The hardest part about growing up is realising .....you need to work at this .
You need to input and drive your own path .

And that means ......NOT relying on others.

Please dont complain about people supporting you the best they can with the limits they are working within .
....you COULD be left to do this all on your own.

Be grateful for what you have ....coz as an adult ....you dont get this help - at all.

Life is hard ......harden up , or fail.

THAT'S , the reality .😔

AISHXJIXUX · 16-17, F

@OogieBoogie Thank you so much for giving advice! I didn't really get to see the replies because i logged out of my account but it really helped me!

OogieBoogie · F

@AISHXJIXUX The transition from being young and dependent on everyone, to adulthood and being independent is a rough road - things change .
And you have to change with it.

I hope things are better and you're coping with it all .

ABCDEF7 · M

You really have couple of problems that your parents seems to be not able to solve for you. I that case, I would suggest you to find solutions by yourself.

First you have to make better use of your time. The time you spend waiting to reach home after your school hours must be utilized in good way. If you can't manage to study in any way, you can try to find a good place to sleep(or take rest) during that time, and the wake a little late to study and complete assignments. This would take few days to create habit of sleeping in day time.

For heat, insects and all the weather conditions, I would suggest you to keep your mind cool. This will not make the outside things better, but would prepare you mentally to not over react to those conditions and keep on doing your work. You can try yoga and meditation for that, or any other mind relaxation exercise would help.

Also try to make local arrangements to make the things around you comfortable. But managing them mentally within yourself would be the key.

helenS · 36-40, F

I think many of the things you said are typical teenage problems which will go away by themselves in the course of time. But some things sound alarming, and if your family can't help you, you should try to find professional help outside your family before it's too late. Good luck to you 🌷

Absurd · 13-15, M

dont try to force to make friends, because i feel the same haha. the more your force it the more you are likely will not be able to get it. want to end my life to since i have nothing to lose and i have nothing but myself or i should say i dont even know who am i too. im paradoxical, i have those people around me that cares but i push them away haha because i believe that they are only there only temporary and in the end yourself is the only one you have so yeah

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