It’s an hour until work and I’m still in my nightshirt…still in bed.
It just felt like a day to where I needed to embrace the nothingness for a change.
No pulls.
No responsibilities.
No having to jet here or there.
Just me, relaxing. Soaking in the sound of the fan, the faint glow of the fireworks screensaver on the bedroom tv, and the peaceful while difficult reconnecting with the me that’s not required to be anything for anyone else.
It was needed. Greatly.
Yesterday I thanked someone for making me smile.
Today I thank someone for making me cry because I needed to release the emotions I blocked myself from having because of who I needed to be for others. But today, I just needed to be me…for me. And it cleansed my soul.
I feel like I can do this now. Like, really do this. So…let’s do this thang ✋🏻
No pulls.
No responsibilities.
No having to jet here or there.
Just me, relaxing. Soaking in the sound of the fan, the faint glow of the fireworks screensaver on the bedroom tv, and the peaceful while difficult reconnecting with the me that’s not required to be anything for anyone else.
It was needed. Greatly.
Yesterday I thanked someone for making me smile.
Today I thank someone for making me cry because I needed to release the emotions I blocked myself from having because of who I needed to be for others. But today, I just needed to be me…for me. And it cleansed my soul.
I feel like I can do this now. Like, really do this. So…let’s do this thang ✋🏻
46-50, F
