View your opinion ?

Is there something wrong when you don't want to interact in conversations with people no more ? Do you think its anti social ? Rude .
It's like I've no interest.
And one reason as well . I sermed to be always the one who being trying to start the conversations with people , so i said to myself . Don't say nothing . Don't interact and see do they start the conversation. They usually don't.
So i said to myself . Im not starting either .
Im sick and tired of pushing myself the extra mile .
And do you know what happens when i don't? I get a bit depressed . I don't know to stay with the feeling or not cause usually the depression kicks in and whats the fear behind that .
I'd end up on my own .
Sure im mostly on my own for the larger sum of my life . Do you see how the mind can play tricks , very subtle way .
Then i starts surrendering to it and there no fight left . .
A person said to me years ago when i was about 18 and he said your one odd person and i was very happy in myself when he said that .
It's usually other people's views , labels .
Trying to fit in with people is a way to stressful .
If they say thats isolation , well im fine with that
. Whats your views ?