View your opinion ?

Is there something wrong when you don't want to interact in conversations with people no more ? Do you think its anti social ? Rude .
It's like I've no interest.
And one reason as well . I sermed to be always the one who being trying to start the conversations with people , so i said to myself . Don't say nothing . Don't interact and see do they start the conversation. They usually don't.
So i said to myself . Im not starting either .
Im sick and tired of pushing myself the extra mile .
And do you know what happens when i don't? I get a bit depressed . I don't know to stay with the feeling or not cause usually the depression kicks in and whats the fear behind that .
I'd end up on my own .
Sure im mostly on my own for the larger sum of my life . Do you see how the mind can play tricks , very subtle way .
Then i starts surrendering to it and there no fight left . .
A person said to me years ago when i was about 18 and he said your one odd person and i was very happy in myself when he said that .
It's usually other people's views , labels .
Trying to fit in with people is a way to stressful .
If they say thats isolation , well im fine with that
. Whats your views ?

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Punches · 46-50, F

At our age we just do not care about "fitting in".
For socializing, that requires more energy than what some of us even have.
Less socializing, less drama.

But yeah you are normal.

riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

@Punches thank you so much for reassuring me .
Your right . You be drained from fitting in . A lot of mental energy

Punches · 46-50, F

@riseofthemachine Glad to help :) The best thing though is people have given up trying to tell us who we should be.

riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

@Punches As in what way ? Who we should be in what ways .
Im lost here .
Do you know when you give up at times being that way , you'd feel totally alienated from people .
That's the confusing part

Punches · 46-50, F

@riseofthemachine Well like when we were young and we might have had some controlling partner trying to re-shape us or older relatives telling us what we should study in college or just whoever being like, "So what are you going to do with your life?"
I just meant at least at this point we do not have to deal with all that.

I have only a couple three people I ever talk to on the regular.

riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

@Punches i went to college for my ex and lasted 10 weeks and ended up getting a nervous breakdown from the whole lot of it cause she had our life planned out . All the outside stuff .
Guess what ? It never worked .
I got another nervous breakdown then after it finished .
That was one of my main strenghts when it finished after going through all of the pain .
I ended up in a job with great money and got another nervous breakdown from it .
I didn't work since and it was a time to take off to discovet about myself for once in my life cause all of that crap , expectations of others , would end up leaving you soulless..
You'd loose yourself in the middle of it all .

Punches · 46-50, F

@riseofthemachine [quote]expectations of others , would end up leaving you soulless..
You'd loose yourself in the middle of it all [quote]

I heard it said that if we cut away a little piece of ourselves to please others, eventually there will be nothing left.

riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

@Punches So true . 100% agree .
It goes bit by bit

riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

@Punches It's taken me 12 years to get back to any part of normality, after the break up .
A friend said me " You'll be believing in God now "