I Am A Loner And Probably Will Always Be A Loner

I got home today from the gym, arranged my things, drank some water. I checked my phone several times: no messages. I sat on a stool in the kitchen and felt a bit desperate... I would say I'm a loner, and most of the time that's OK: I like being on my own and doing things by myself, I sometimes reject social interactions (parties, gatherings) because I prefer to be alone. Also, because sometimes when I am in those social environments, I feel alone even if I'm surrounded by people.

Anyway. There are days, like today, that I would like to not be alone. But it's like a vicious circle, how do I get out of it? How do I meet people, make meaningful connections? Is there a way out? Do I want a way out?

Just felt like sharing.