So I decided to play a game

No, no. Not that kind of game.

It is a mal-functioning social interaction game called energy and effort mirroring.

In fact maybe it’s just learning to be neurotypical and use my mirror neurons.

Thing is it’s blooding lonely.

Because there is no energy or effort coming my way.

But you know, i was just tired of giving more than I got.

Of rooting for everyone else.

Of seeing the good in people.

Believing in people.

I was kind and hopeful.

But exhausted.

And now?

I’m bitter and disillusioned
And still exhausted.

But I’m stuck in the game.

Be what you want in the world didn’t work for me.

But neither does this.

What’s in the in between?