Im at the mall .. i tried some tall shoes i look really beautiful on and some sweters ...hard to pick what to get i feel i need a new style upgrade me
Cant make up my mind i will slow down and not rush into the first thing i see i just hesitate cus i was planing also getting my lips done ..i just need to organize im just not good with money and numbers ill figure it out i guess also i have different personalities so its hard to choose stuff due it but i d love something edgy and gothic..it's kind of fun when I'm on magic mushrooms and have christmas money.
but then I entered a store I wanted all the gym outfits to workout were so cute and futuristic so I started summing up how much would I spend there if I got 2 complete sets plus other stuff and I was like yea I can save this money and then I left and I know I might never come back to get it and thats sad ... but I cant have it all so I left the mall and didnt get anything cus I coudnt decide what to choose
fucking depressive I entered my room crying hugging my cat and told myself I dont need shit cus im an introvert antisocial but maybe I woudnt be that if I knew how to shop wish I didnt have such good taste.....and wish things woudnt look so good on me cus then I woudnt be feeling lust for life. meanwhile my true potential will sleep suppressed like a flower ready to never bloom just like my sex life ....
what if ur closet is a reflection of your freedom confidence and sensuality what if u can free urself by daring to upgrade your style to the next level? what if your style naturally levels up the moment u free your heart mind body and soul what if eating magic mushrooms at the mall is the key to all your problems HAHAHA just a fun thought life is a funny play and I love the art of costumes cus Im the goat sheep in the Chinese calendar and we tend to love theatre and are good with self image and costumes and creating settings and neatness we are good writers too and extemly feminine
fun fact know yourself
soemthing similar happened with the guitar I was about to buy I was so sure but then I met another baby faded blueberry modern sg twice as much as the one I had in mind ... and I rather wait than get the cheap one even if wating means for eternity just like when it comes to finding the right man...
fuck ....what a tragedy to be or not to be I am I am I am wish I was an it girl hopefully I wont spend all my money on matcha smoothies and Pringles
