Why is it during the first week of 2022, everything and everyone has to be so darn crazy? Depressed and overwhelmed

Gee… It’s 2022 thank goodness.. With the new year though and everyone going back to work for the holidays it seems everything has gone to H-E double hockey stick in a ham basket. I took off a couple of weeks for the holidays ..so did everyone else now we are all getting back and everyone is playing major catch-up.. People are wanting to meet goals so they are being ambitious and overly assertive.. it’s a storm of chaos right now.

With that being said I’m noticing so much conflict. I have started to realize how sensitive I am emotionally. Like I’ve always been this way and now in my almost middle 30s. Married to love of my life. 2 amazing children. With that being said, I’m really in this space where I’m noticing how upset I get by things.

Like for example, I run a business and customers often say the worst things IE degrading your character and stuff. I just lost one customer today might lose another over some really silly stuff like being out for the holidays and not fulfilling an order fast enough for the other.. typos in the work which I don’t even personally write.. and it seems like all my customers want to blow me up at the same time this week for all kinds of little stuff..

I’ve really been letting this roll off my back for like 3 weeks as it seem some people seriously don’t even want you to stop working over the holidays and they’ve been nagging so so much…and it’s all kind of coming to a head now. In the 2 weeks I took off to spend time with family it seems like everything went wrong with all my customers. And I’m getting to this point now where I feel like its truly piercing my soul.. like all of these comments coming at me and needs.. my lord we’ve been back from the holidays for less than 5 days!!

And it’s just so all overwhelming in my brain now that I’m overanalysing manically every single thought.. it is really painful emotionally. I’m like sad, angry, trying to justify all of these feelings from all of these people.my imposter syndrome is flaring and I’m questioning my self greatly all the things I’m doing in my work life.. I’m numbing myself to my husband and kids..

it’s helping me to write and get it out but I’m totally hurting and it’s affecting my motivation greatly. I’ve got other customers asking for proposals and I’m having trouble focusing enough to get them done..It’s making my stomach hurt and I’m so tense all the time. Im worried I’m going to have like a heart attack or stroke from all the stress.. I hate getting out of bed.. I’m not sleeping because of our 5 month old so I’m exhausted..I think and think about everything going wrong and how I’m going to fix it and I can’t shut my brain off..

I do have depression I think from having my son 5 months ago but I thought it was mild.. I’m working with a counsler..

But these are my feelings and I’m overwhelmed by them.. and I’m not sure how to cope.

For now, I will pray and be thankful for my life blessings. God is still good and I know these things have to be happening for a reason.

Can anyone relate? Anyone else overwhelmed by their feelings and depression and life.. or just had hard periods.. I think it’s especially hard for empaths because we internalize EVERYthing.

Any experiences or advice, words of encouragement I would be so grateful for. Sending love and healing thoughts to you guys.