Update number one

So like a little update on whats happening in my life rn cuz why not. I think I'm going to start posting more updates here because the comunity here is so much kinder than on other platforms. So I'm going to 9th grade after summer and I'm scared as heck. Even tho i have good grades i don't think I'll get anywhere. Another update is that i think I'm depressed? I dunno. It's hard to get up, clean my room, brush my teeth and everything feels useless. Another little update is that on a camp i was i had an emotional shut down and haven’t felt anything since then. So at a camp i went through a lot, realised a few things and cried myself to sleep at reading someone’s troubles that sounded too similar to my. I wrote too many poems in that week. Anyway there was a boy i liked and i didn’t want my friend to tell him that i likes him but she did anyway. She told me he doesn't like me like that and ever since he's been mostly ignoring me. Never bringing anything emotional/dating related because it seemed weird for him. (Bdw I'm not supposed to know that he knows that i like him). He only texted me when asking about his Ex. She's my friend and they met because of me. But ever since the emotional shut down I've been a bit better. Cleaned my room, went out a bit more, even made a new friend at a pool. I also made a few more creative things since then that i had no motivation to before. I also have been thinking more with my head instead of my heart so yeah. Hope you guys are doing good as well.💗