I haven't stopped caring; I've stopped pretending I care
I've never really been a people person. I find most people to be exhausting, more mentally than physically. Plus, I just don't form attachment to people the way that most others do. I'm simply not wired that way.
I am married with 4 kids.........I love my wife and kids, don't get me wrong. I talk to my brother a couple times a week, I enjoy that. But, beyond that I just don't care. As I'm getting older, I'm noticing that my tolerance for pretending to care is wearing very thin. To the point where I'm done pretending. Here's an example...........Over the weekend I was on the phone with my 93-year-old mother, who is bat shit crazy and always has been. She found it necessary to tell me that a former employer of mine had died. To be honest I thought he was considerably older than he apparently was and I had always just assumed he would have been dead by now anyway. In any case, I couldn't stand this guy and haven't seen him in over 30 years. Long story short, I said to my mother "why would I care?". Honestly why would I? It started this huge argument, and I just got annoyed and hung up the phone.
That's just one example, but lately there have been more and more times that I just have stopped pretending I give a shit and just have to tell people......I just don't care.
I am married with 4 kids.........I love my wife and kids, don't get me wrong. I talk to my brother a couple times a week, I enjoy that. But, beyond that I just don't care. As I'm getting older, I'm noticing that my tolerance for pretending to care is wearing very thin. To the point where I'm done pretending. Here's an example...........Over the weekend I was on the phone with my 93-year-old mother, who is bat shit crazy and always has been. She found it necessary to tell me that a former employer of mine had died. To be honest I thought he was considerably older than he apparently was and I had always just assumed he would have been dead by now anyway. In any case, I couldn't stand this guy and haven't seen him in over 30 years. Long story short, I said to my mother "why would I care?". Honestly why would I? It started this huge argument, and I just got annoyed and hung up the phone.
That's just one example, but lately there have been more and more times that I just have stopped pretending I give a shit and just have to tell people......I just don't care.
