I have such an addictive personality its frightening i must

Then when i tries to stop it all at once to be so called "Normal" i nearly gets a nervous breakdown from it .
When i have no drama in my life i looks for it .
I bought 3 Ps5 games in 3 weeks .
I have an outrageous Dvd and Music collection "well i give myself credit I'm collecting that for the last 20 years "
If i go into spirituality i goes into it deep , not easy , nearly until i go mad from it .
My house has too be spotless . I'm a tidy freak .
My clothes had to be arranged in order 'Pants with pants , shirts with shirts , shoes with shoes"
I'm just an very arranged person .
I strive for perfection by I'm not a perfectionist .
I have a very over active mind and my mind don't stop until i solve it .
I love animals , love music , love movies , love the sea , and most of my time I'm a loner .
I'm single , I'd love to be in a relationship, but I'm scared to death of it being honest .
What do you make of it ? 😊

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Lostpoet · M

i think you should go to a bar Saturday night and get fcked up and on Sunday you should find a nice person that looks single and introduce yourself.

riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

@Lostpoet 😂😂😂😂.
Im sober 18 years and clean 18 years 😂😂😂😂.
That's a good idea . I'd like rhe woman part

Lostpoet · M

@riseofthemachine I've been Sober five years i understand not wanting to break the habit. You can try to introduce yourself to someone sober, but that's a daunting task.

riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

@Lostpoet I had loads of woman when i was drinking and can't find one when im sober .
They drink is Deutsch Courage .
Ah I'm delighted your sober 5 years .
Do you find it painful or ok

Lostpoet · M

@riseofthemachine Very painful i started drinking young so i learned how to be social under those circumstances and find it hard to feel comfortable and accept by people when i'm sober. I don't come from Deutschland, but that is my ancestry as well. The funny thing is i quit drinking for spiritual and relationship reasons.