I have such an addictive personality its frightening i must

Then when i tries to stop it all at once to be so called "Normal" i nearly gets a nervous breakdown from it .
When i have no drama in my life i looks for it .
I bought 3 Ps5 games in 3 weeks .
I have an outrageous Dvd and Music collection "well i give myself credit I'm collecting that for the last 20 years "
If i go into spirituality i goes into it deep , not easy , nearly until i go mad from it .
My house has too be spotless . I'm a tidy freak .
My clothes had to be arranged in order 'Pants with pants , shirts with shirts , shoes with shoes"
I'm just an very arranged person .
I strive for perfection by I'm not a perfectionist .
I have a very over active mind and my mind don't stop until i solve it .
I love animals , love music , love movies , love the sea , and most of my time I'm a loner .
I'm single , I'd love to be in a relationship, but I'm scared to death of it being honest .
What do you make of it ? 😊