Someone important to me has to join an army he opposes because he has no other means to live

I hope the same.

there is a lot wrong with this world

people like you are one of the only aspects of it that makes sticking around in it worthwhile

I've overheard a military recruiter in the US saying they loved recessions because of what they do for recruitment. Lost a lot of respect for that person that day. It made me realize that sometimes poverty is engineered to feed the engines of war.