I want to journal right now…

I dont know if It’s me or you…but I’m sad. I don’t expect anything meaningful to happen. I’m annoyed bc I’m busy being sad about you instead of enjoying my life. Everything becomes irritating bc I don’t have your affection… I’m pulled in two directions. Maybe it’s not as big of a deal as I think it is right now. Maybe I’m tired and thinking too much. Maybe the tiredness isn’t making me think straight…. Perhaps I shouldn’t be in bed yet. I came here bc I wanted to be alone moping, with my thoughts in hopes that feeling the sadness harder would make me feel better. Perhaps actually doing things that bring me joy and feel good will actually make me better… I know it’s ok to feel sad sometimes, but we have a choice. We can choose to feel love through the things we love. We don’t have to wait. What would make you feel loved right now?