The face of depression

When having friends laugh, joke, and talk to you, then ghost, ignore, and lie to you, it hurts.
NOBODY hurts you worse than the ones you love. I stick by him 5 yrs, only to see him leave me for another woman.
Why did he leave me?
Because SHE is his dream girl.
SHE has kids by him, SHE has his heart. SHE has his best interests and Better intentions.
I was there through his jail stay.
I was there through his wife taking his kids.
I was there for all of it, and he ended up BACK WITH HER!
It hurts..
It hurts to hold on..but now, i let him go..goodbye bestie
I hope and pray this time around, YOU remember me always...faithful friends dont give up on each other..but YOUR LIFE, YOUR CHOICES..YOUR CONSCIENCE, YOU CONSEQUENCES.
I can no LONGER hold onto someone who forgets who was there..you cant come back, IM NOT INTERESTED IN breadcrumbs or gas lighting me anymore.
THANKFULLY, I AM DEFINITELY NOT A HANDOUT, I was a hand up..