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Sweetpoison I don’t think he was aware of the implications, and he didn’t recognize his victims as being people with their own needs (like the need to live). Without a doubt, he was consumed by his desires and by his compulsions.
Another aspect to this is that he wanted to take responsibility for what he did, as opposed to denying it or blaming it on other people and other factors. These factors, though, are all really important in establishing why he became that person. I’d also note that he didn’t have a great handle on his life in any remote sense. I mean come on, he was an alcoholic who had/lost multiple jobs, had no real friends, no hobbies or interests, had abandonment issues, a weird sense of humor used as a coping mechanism, an array of obsessive qualities (continually watching the same tapes over and over again), and many other issues that caused him to be alone and isolated.
He wasn’t a well man, at all.
