I need a release

So these last few days have been a lot for me. With everything going on with my buddy and tiny tornado birthday I've been so stressed and anxious. I've been holding back many of my tics and outbursts because I've had no choice. Can't let a bunch of crazy tics out at the hospital or in front of the family. I can tell I really need a release soon. Like I said before holding back a tic or outbursts is hard, it hurts and they just build up. I need to let it out. But I'm up now with my oldest boy. He got a new game yesterday and he's pretty excited to play it. Then I'll take Star to see her dad when Joel gets home.

More holding in tics.

But when we get back I'm going to tell Joel I need him to help me release. I hopefully we can trigger a tic attack
Then I need sleep I really need sleep