I'm firing my therapist.

It's a shame because I thought I finally found the right person. She did help me a lot and I like her as a person. I'm grateful for the sessions we had.

But she made a mistake that hurt me very badly. One she stands by. I can respect that she thinks she's doing the right thing, but I will not sacrifice self governance of my own mental health because she doesn't really understand.

I will not be treated like I am suicidal when I'm not. Nothing terrifies me more because if people think that, you lose ALL self governance and they jab you until your a blob in their system.

I'm so bummed because I don't want to start over.

And afraid of trusting someone again.

I worked so hard to get to the point we were starting EMDR, the very session, she pulled the plug.

How exactly do I get the help I need with PTSD if people see the symptoms of PTSD as a reason to not treat it?

I've been going through my mental health journey without meds. Meds don't work on me because of fibromyalgia. So I've been putting in the work. My rheumatologist says I need to do the mental work. I have been trying so hard.

It really was a struggle for me to open up and try again. I really wanted this old junk out of my head.

She didn't have to pull the plug by any means.

I can't trust her anymore. Not if she doesn't trust me.

I wrote her a letter thanking her for all the help she gave me. I want her to know I appreciate her. But she made a bad call and that cost me more than she will ever comprehend.

I am not going to seek therapy again until I'm out west where people understand you can treat mental health without meds.

I'm tired of being treated like I'm too much because they can't push pills on me.

I wanted this help so badly. I worked so hard for it.

Not my time I guess.