I'm so overwhelmed and I don't know what to do.
I'm just stuck between mental illnesses for which I can't get help and the overwhelming expectations of adult financial life. I can't handle it all.
I accept a great deal of financial help from the one who caused my PTSD from childhood — not because I think I deserve it, but because I don't know what else to do — and I never seem to be able to make up for it. Then he uses every opportunity he can to hold it over my head.
And when he's not doing that, he turns around and pretends like he wants me to open up to him emotionally as if none of the bad stuff ever happened.
I don't expect anyone to come up with a solution for me. Actually I won't be surprised if people judge me for this post. I just really don't know what to do and I feel like I'm not cut out to survive in this world.
I accept a great deal of financial help from the one who caused my PTSD from childhood — not because I think I deserve it, but because I don't know what else to do — and I never seem to be able to make up for it. Then he uses every opportunity he can to hold it over my head.
And when he's not doing that, he turns around and pretends like he wants me to open up to him emotionally as if none of the bad stuff ever happened.
I don't expect anyone to come up with a solution for me. Actually I won't be surprised if people judge me for this post. I just really don't know what to do and I feel like I'm not cut out to survive in this world.
