AngelUnforgiven · 51-55, F
Aww im so sorry. Can you remove all the triggers? If you dont want to delete them. Email them to yourself so that you dont have to look at them until you're ready. Maybe if they are out of sight out of mind it will be easier. Theres a painting, a self portrait, of my youngest daughter she's 19, in my garage i will not bring it into the house. Inside the frame is a gown, a necklace, and a hat belonging to the baby girl that i lost and also her name tag and hospital bracelet from the NICU from her crib. The photo of my other daughter just reminds me of it. I gave them the same name. As long as i dont see it i'm fine and i dont think about it. One of these days i will look at it. Its been years
RedGrizzly · 26-30, F
@AngelUnforgiven I'm sorry about your baby girl. You know exactly what the pain is like, and I'm sorry about that. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. You know, logically you know you'll see them again one day. I know this too. But the absence is just hard. In my case, in some way I can't get past the guilt. I didn't have a home at the time, hoped in the good in someone that didn't have any...and it lead to a series of extreme events. In part, I blame myself for my initial poor judgement which lead to the loss of two loved ones who carried me through it all for a time. I'm sorry you can relate and understand all that. In some way, I wish someone would understand the severity of what I've gone through without trying to dismiss it because it's too much to handle...but that would mean they've gone through it too. I'm sorry that you understand. 🤍
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RedGrizzly · 26-30, F
@LILY61 Well, I can personally say those people aren't doing that well than what they try to convince everyone. And don't worry, I've not done anything nor will ever do anything tragic no matter how bad it is. But yes, you're right! Finding an anti-trigger to take the mind off it. I basically treated myself to a good breakfast and put on a lighthearted crime/comedy. Even when I didn't want to tbh. It helped me go into a little daze so I'm in the final part of it. Hopefully as the day goes on things get a little lighter. I'm just dissociated ATM.
