I Survived the Worst of Ptsd

When I first acquired PTSD, I had flashbacks all day long, and even when I would attempt to sleep, the flashbacks were in my dreams as nightmares. That helacious period lasted almost 3 years, and looking back now, I can see how far I've come.

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IAMMONARAHIMI · 36-40, F

do you mind me asking what happened?

PeanutsauntieP1982 · 41-45, F

@IAMMONARAHIMI I woke up during surgery. I was awake for 30 minutes of a 45 minute surgery, and no one knew I was awake. I could hear and feel everything, I just couldn't move because of the neuromuscular paralytic that I'd been given prior to surgery. It was my personal hell.

IAMMONARAHIMI · 36-40, F

@PeanutsauntieP1982 but you didn't feel anything, pain?

PeanutsauntieP1982 · 41-45, F

I could feel and hear everything, every minute of the surgery was agony. And even though the pain was horrible, the worst thing to me was the damn breathing tube in my throat.