I scare myself

All day thoughts go through my head of different ways to hurt myself, it’s consuming, it’s all I think about.

Yesterday I broke my own arm. It’s still agony, but the thoughts haven’t stopped.

I think about boiling a kettle of water and pouring it over my head. Heating up my curling iron and just holding it against my skin.

I know it’s fucked up. I don’t even recognise myself anymore. I just want it to end

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CestManan · 46-50, F

When we are young and do things that cause scars, whether intentional actions or accidents, it seems like no big deal.

Thing is when we get older we really do not like our scars. Partially because everything else starts to look bad and we try to cling to our youthful looks.

I don't know, I personally avoid self harm

DeadSophie · F

@CestManan I’m not doing it because I want scars, you really think someone who breaks their own arm deliberately is worrying about what their skin might look like one day?

CestManan · 46-50, F

@DeadSophie Well, alright, you have a point.