I scare myself

All day thoughts go through my head of different ways to hurt myself, it’s consuming, it’s all I think about.

Yesterday I broke my own arm. It’s still agony, but the thoughts haven’t stopped.

I think about boiling a kettle of water and pouring it over my head. Heating up my curling iron and just holding it against my skin.

I know it’s fucked up. I don’t even recognise myself anymore. I just want it to end

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SW-User

I honestly don't think that you should be alone for any amount of time where you have access to anything unsafe. You should probably be sectioned, I can't see any other way that you would have a reasonable chance of being free from harm in the short term.

DeadSophie · F

@SW-User I’m already not allowed to be alone with anything, I’m watched 24/7 and I’ve had anything that could be used to hurt myself taken off me. It’s part of the conditional release from hospital

SW-User

@DeadSophie I wish that it wasn't like this for you. Perhaps the zombie kind of meds would be better right now. Perhaps a rest from yourself is needed.

DeadSophie · F

@SW-User I’d like that