I used to be diagnosed with OCD but then...

But then one psychiatrist disagreed and now they all say I have anxiety and depression. But I still feel like bad things will happen to people if I don't pray. I still have both s**ual related compulsions and compulsive shopping and hand washing. So I feel like I'm being wrongly diagnosed and I want to get better. Ok I'm being referred for talking therapies for the compulsions and I've been offered meds. But I can't take them coz they turn me into a zombie who can't get out of bed. To be honest I've had enough of the cycle of trying to avoid obsessing and doing compulsions and feeling like a bad person who is useless as a result. I don't know how to stop and I'm so tired and tired of it. I just needed to rant 😔.