I Am Insane

Things are getting worse. This is isn't the first major episode I've had in the past four months, and that's more frequent than ever. I had just laid down in bed and in my dorm I have my pillows against the side of my closet and for whatever reason my laying against the pillows made the door creak wide open and I went immediately into panic mode. Slammed it shut and I couldn't let go of it to let whatever was in there out. I was so terrified I could not consider it opening on chance. And I freaked the hell out of the suicide hotline guy, I'm 20 years old and I needed an adult to check my closet for monsters.