I Think I Am Going Insane

Hell bound- she's on the brink if destruction. It was all it took for her to go completely numb. The monster said everyone would be happier with her out of the picture. They called her names, told her that no one likes her. She forces herself to go to work and every step that she takes getting into the building is a challenge. Her legs feels like they have cement blocks on them, and she's afraid that if she takes another step, the ground would cave in and she would sink into the floor. Surprisingly the thought doesn't cross her mind as a bad thing; it's almost relaxing. As she starts her shift, she can feel her legs shake. It's almost as if gravity is working against her, and pushing her inside herself. Every part of her feels heavy, and she. Feels overwhelmingly tired. She doesn't even have the energy to talk; and then she sees the monster. They make eye contact for a minute, and she can feel something small inside break. Was it a heart? There's no way it could have been a heart. Her body is too fragile. Whatever it was sent chills up her spine, and threw her stomach in knots, and it was enough to make her collapse at the register and sob. This girl has been so good at hiding her emotions behind a smile, but only a monster can bring out what she really is; a sad little girl who was thrown into something she was not ready for. She gasps for air and bl<x>inks away the tears as another customer comes up. When she is done, the girl walks to the bathroom, locks the door and sits on the floor. Everything is tingling, and she feels like she is going to pass out. Thoughts are racing through her head faster then she can bl<x>ink. She is remembering everything the monster said the night before, and her hands get cold and clammy as she realized that the monster was right; everyone that ever meant anything to her tossed her away without so much as a warning or a goodbye; her mother, family, friends, all gone. They couldn't handle her. She sits on the floor with her head buried in her knees. "She's right," she says. She lifts up her sleeve and the scars are as visible as the sun. The funny thing is Ty look even more visible when she is feeling like this. She takes one look in the mirror and realizes that she is Hellbound, and there is no getting out.